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just feels like writing

I am happy with my work. It is not hard but never was easy for me. People learn everyday about newer thing, (usually) tough way to get through and yes, hurt sometimes. But those couple notches won’t just stay there for nothing. It’ll be mark for some furious things we have overcome. That was what matter.

Lunch time for me is not always on time as mine is not like others. Everyone’s time break is my working hour. So, I end up eating alone. That was nothing. I don’t mean that I like to eat by myself but, it is not such a bad idea, to be frank. And better yet, by the time I’m back at my work station the clock would be much closer to 5.30pm by an hour. At least.

If you ask me if life’s great, I won’t lie about it. It was fantastically AWFUL, sadly AMAZING and ordinarily SUPERB because I believe we cannot judge life as easy as ABC.  You cannot say it was great when it can flip 180 degree just like that after you celebrate it. Life was never fair but that is never wrong too. We just accept an…

a clean restart

we shouldn't have lost if we followed the map so right
that was what someone told me a little too long ago
still I couldn't stop thinking from daylight to night
but what more could I do if you really wish to go

we will never crash if we don't drive the road so fast
that was once I heard some people keep talk about
now that I'm in the same situation, what can I say at last
you broke all those promises together we had vowed

and should you just walk away now cuz being here you're just making my tears fall down
and don't look at my face, in my eyes cuz you make me realize how hopeless I am now
to let such misery slips into my life and did nothing to get this pain out of my heart
now I know what foolishness I've let myself be for you all this while, all this hard time

well it's true what they say, love is just a game of the blind
of someone with eyes to see but refused to see through
it such a shame we had to turn our flight back to where it departs
but it&#…

starting it back again...


Fuuu... lamanya tak menjenguk benda alah ni... dah sersawang dah... hahaha...

Am I being so busy this far? well, yeah... but to think of it... tak adalah that kind of busy, I mean... everybody's busy...kan..?

hahaha, regardless... I still find it hard for me to blog for I was feeling tired back from work... not able to open my laptop and start writing... I was starting to become a habit... even on weekends too, I was so much lazy to even open FB... ohhh...

it was frustrating actually... but not serious stuff lah...

well, I think I wanna start back again...

so... fighting!!!

oh yeah... I have something to ask... Emil asks actually.

"Is it okay to start something you've given up long ago because you felt you can't do it, you felt you're not borne with it  and/or to do it? Should you be of any care with what people might say to you about it?"

p/s - I felt good to write again...

bila lafasku tak mampu, diam-diam sahaja di situ

ku suka melihatmu tersenyum sebegitu, padaku itulah permandangan terindah
ku gembira membuatmu tertawa sebegitu, padaku duniaku sudah cukup sempurna
jika mampu aku selam lautan dalam mencari mutiara terindah, kau tahu itulah yang pasti aku lakukan
jika berupaya aku terbang ke langit tinggi mencapai bintang jauh di sana, kau tahu aku sanggup menahan sengsara
namun aku tak mampu, aku hanya seorang yang biasa sahaja
benar aku tak mampu, aku cumalah sang pencinta yang melihat… jauh dari sangkar ini…

ku suka mendengar setiap bait mesra puisi kau lafas menenangkan jiwa
ku ceria berjalan denganmu ke mana-mana, kerana langkah akan tetap terus bertenaga
di sisimu aku rasa seperti aku mampu lakukan apa sahaja
di sisimu aku seperti bukan diriku yang selalu dan biasa
jika aku mampu menyanyi akan aku lagukan puisi rindu ini untuk hiburanmu agar kau tahu apa yang aku rasakan selamanya
jika aku kuat untuk menyata bahawa dirimulah satu ku cinta tak perlulah aku sendirian di sini mengarang ceritera cerita fantas…